things i cant fit in

due to year 12 the "make or break" time in our 13 years of schooling i am unable to do the things in life that i actually want to do, which to me seams a contradiction to what year 12 is supposed to achieve *achieving my goals* excuse me if i don't have a goal to ruin my friendships, loose my eyesight from reading and die a quivering unfit stress ball in the corner of my room. So just for a vent i would like to list the things i would rather be doing than slowly going made from lack of human interaction:

-i would like to play guitar

-read books i want to read

-go to gigs on a monday night

-i would like to have singing lessons again

-i would like to paint just because not because i have to

-i want to make a tie dye doona cover

-i want to make my own clothes

-i want not travel a bloody hour and a half twice a day just to get to school

-see my friends on the weekends

-see my nan more than twice a year

-have time to write

-stay out late without worrying if i'll have the energy for hw tomorrow

-stay home if i have a cold

-i would LOVE to go swimming

-go for runs

-do more yoga

-GET A FREEKIN JOB

-see michael more

the list goes on but all these things are Impossible until the end of the year they all have to be put on the back burner so i can prove my worth in five two hour tests to people i have never met and be given a number that will be important to me for a total of one week a number that now defines my existence and that will be irrelevant for the rest of my life.

is 93 worth it?